Loved and being reckless

So. Hi, I am graduating on Saturday. Consider this your invitation. I am at a loss for what's next. I am also at a bit of a messy place. I don't want to be a responsible adult. I know that just because I'm graduating, doesn't mean I have to be a grown up, but that's how I am feeling. I am looking for any chance to be reckless. I know that this isn't really okay, but its like the temptation, is too much. I want to cause trouble, do the things I know I shouldn't, and have fun. I will be an adult soon. I will stop being reckless... but for now I just want to have fun and play.